I am missing India... my home, my family, my nieces and nephews and the sheer joy of playing with them in the garden... and after so many days I am crying because I am missing them... and I am writing it here because I can't talk it out to anyone... It is my decision to live here and I can't justify why I am crying. I have spent my whole morning looking at the pictures of my family when I have 100 other things to do... I am scared of going back to India for good due to many reasons!

Happiness

Sometime happiness don't need a reason. Today seems one of those days... Nothing special... just another summer morning. No rains or the smell of rains, no special gifts, no phone calls with loved ones, no good news, no good food... nothing special. It is just the feeling that is making me happy...

I have been having such days for sometime now and I am loving it. Its a nice feeling of satisfaction. I have been doing all the things that I love, except one - playing sports. Hope to get back to that soon. I quit from my 9-5 job 6 months back. I have been looking for a new one on and off... but during last 6 months, I have been working on a lot of different things than I have worked in last 3 years at my job. And I also have an amazing guide which I have always wanted to point me in the right direction when it comes to work. Yep, my husband. We have been coding together. It is not the ideal romantic relationship, but both of us are not that kind of people either. I have always wanted to work with someone who is good and does not do my performance review. Well, I have that person now. We do fight sometime when he becomes too picky about the code and I become too possessive about my code... but then hopefully we both understand that and let it go. It has been fun overall. At the end of the day, it is good to marry a person to talk to in the same language that you would talk to your friends... may it be geeky.

Too much of coding life... but hey, its fun having brainstorming session at 1 am lying in the same bed. ;-)

Suddenly feel that its been long since I met my friends... the list is long... but I am missing each one. Hopefully I meet them soon.

Suddently feel that its been long since I met my friends... the list is long... but I am missing each one. Hopefully I meet them soon.

I wish my Dad had not grown old. Period.

Deshpande baba

This post is for one of my Grandfather's friend. I felt like writing about him, his personality.
His name is Deshpande Baba. White Kurta, White Dhoti and a big smile, that's how I remember him. He had such a charming personality. He always spoke with such enthusiasm and freshness, that it made you feel connected to him. At the age of 80+, he never took a stick to help him walk. From what I got to hear, he went walking every morning as his exercise routine. He spoke about the lemon trees at his house. Always met and spoke to all of us in the family and knew each one of us, where we live, what we do.

My Grandfather and he met everyday. They were such good buddies. It was good to see that my Grandfather had a company everyday. Kids grow old and don't spend enough time with older ones as much, not because they don't want to, but because there are a lot of other things happening in their life which they need to take care of. Friendships like Deshpande Baba and my Grandfather is such a blessing at that age. Well, they are a blessing at any age.

Anyways, I got to know that he passed away last week. I felt sorry for my Grandfather and was so much thinking what he might be feeling.

When you feel that you are not at the right place, make an effort to move out of that place. Being in the right place is important.
Doing what you enjoy is very important. If you are not doing what you enjoy then remind yourself that it is not what you want. Make an effort to get what you want and do what you enjoy. Don't just sit and be satisfied that at least you have what you have now... You deserve more, you deserve what you enjoy!

Relax, its just a reminder to myself about my work.