Security screenings at Airports

This is funny - http://www.cnn.com/2012/01/10/travel/tsa-defends-cupcake-policy/index.html?hpt=hp_bn7

It reminded me of April 2010, when I was traveling to Atlanta from Boulder for my husband's birthday. Since I was reaching on his birthday eve, I decided to bake cake in Boulder and took Betty Crocker's chocolate frosting tin packed and sealed with me so that I could apply the frosting after reaching Atlanta. But the security officials at Denver airport were not happy with the frosting. It was a gel kind of thing for them which was more than 3 ounce. They checked my bag and told me that I can't take it with me on the plane. When I was like "Please, it is my husband's first birthday after we got married and bla bla bla...", the officials were like "Ok, why don't you apply the frosting here itself?" I was not sure how the frosting would hold up in the plane and did not want to ruin the cake. So, I did not apply the frosting on the cake at the security. (It would have been weird to apply the frosting on the cake at the security). So the frosting went into trash can and the cake was eaten naked (Please, the cake was naked! Ha ha).

Ok, so it will be almost two years of being married this February. Family and relatives have started asking about kids... which makes me think a lot, will I be a good parent?

I love kids, a lot! On my recent India trip, I spent most of my time with a 1.5 year old nephew and 2.5 year old niece. I had so much fun with them and I am sure even they had as much fun. Their parents tell me the kids miss me and I miss them too. If I did not have any other work, I would have spent all my time with them.

But I can never think of having my own kids. I am not sure if I will be able to take good care of them. I am very careless about eating right, and I am scared that attitude of mine will affect my kids. It is a lot of responsibility, life time responsibility. When I think about my past as a kid, I can imagine what my parents had to go through. Agreed that they give you the love that is not comparable to any other love in this world, still I am not ready.

I am also not ready because I am not sure what the future looks like for us... Financially, there is no problem now, but who knows what it will be like in the future. How much money saving is enough to have kids? There are so many uncertainties in life and growing up another life in such uncertainties will make life more complicated. Life never feels settled, ever.

I am not ready for having a kid now, and I am not sure when I will be ready.

I generally don't make resolutions for the new years... But I have one for this year - Spending one month in South Americas in the second half of this year. A has agreed to it and wants to do it himself. Lets see if we can make it.

Happy New Year.

I have been wanting to write this since this morning... I wish there was infinite amount of time and some amount of infinite money just to visit all the beautiful places in the world. And the irony is - if you have a lot of time free, then you are obviously not working and don't have enough money. And when you have money, that means you are working hard and you don't have time.

My "Places to Visit" list is getting longer and longer... sigh. :-|. I blame myself for that... have too much interest in this beautiful world.

A lot of times my blog are one liners. I want to write a lot more about whats going on in my life when I write the one liners, but I am not very sure of what the reaction would be of the readers and future readers. So, I end up writing one-liners. People are very judgmental. And I am very cautious of my image, so I better write one-liners.

Life is busy again. I have started working in an actual office again. Back to same 9-6 life. Though, I look forward to getting back to home. So, my current office is in the downtown. I take a 10 min bus ride and then 10 min walk to my office. That 10 min walk in the morning is the best time. I see so many people rushing to work, trying to be on time, stores opening, people having their morning coffee. 8-9 hours in the office and then it is the time to go back to the bus stop and another 10 min walk. Since its Christmas time, the downtown is all lit with lights. Every single tree is decorated with lights and they all light up together in one line. Looks amazing. I need to take my camera one day to capture some lights before Christmas ends.

So this is my life currently. It is good. But now that I compare with my non-working or working from home life, it was good too. Just that I didn't go out as often. Does working in a company make me feel better? Not really. Just that there is discipline in my life. I don't sleep at random hours and eat well when I am disciplined. Do I miss my old life? Yes, I do.

Anyways, will stop here... some more some other time.

In the same fix again... the heart wants it but the brain does not...

seeing her off

So two weeks back my younger sister got married. I was high on the sentimental side of emotions... again too many thoughts going on in the mind. You are protective and possessive of your siblings and you want the best for them. There is nothing like best, but still you hope for it.
I saw one of our pic together of Bidaai and those emotions are back. She is now happily married but the mind still thinks about her so much. Its hard to let go of your things and hardest to let go of your people. Though she will be mine, she is still not mine enough. I can still shout on her though but I cant get all her time now.
I know its part of life, but it is one of the hardest part of life. I will soon accept this fact and get used to it in some time, but at this moment its not so comforting.