Another friend leaves,
some hearts are empty,
some eyes are watery,
and lot of words are unspoken...

Such are relationships,
which give you the most,
and take away from you most,
And now is the time to cherish...

Its been long since I wrote... I have lots to write, but I think writing all that will make me vulnerable. And the last thing I will let happen to myself is making myself vulnerable.

I am confused, and I think I am always confused. My right brain wants one thing and my left brain wants another thing. And its not possible to satisfy both the brains. I wish I not had been like this and I had a clear crystal mind.

Sometimes I think if it is good to have that open a mind and speak it out that frankly. I think people find difficult to connect with me and get offended. Its not that what I think I am going to implement it in my life, but I think there is nothing wrong in those things.

And I cant ignore what people think about me. At last, I live in a society. And so, I sometimes feel running away from the society in a secluded area where there is no one to judge you.

You wish, Poonam! That is never going to happen.

I feel like a dumb. I dont know anything about what I should have known in the ideal world. I dont know... I am clueless. I feel pathetic...

Update - And then I crib about it to A, and I feel good after cribbing. :D

Note

You can't make everyone happy. So, be happy when you and some near ones are happy.

:)

I never felt that I will have all these emotions that I am going through currently. I always thought that I have a very stony heart. People who know me also think similar about me... they can never imagine me with a guy and in love. I had all those girly dreams but my love for my parents and family always super-seeded those dreams. I always took marriages as society rituals. And when I said yes to getting married, I still had all these things in my mind.

And now, after 5 months of being engaged, I have such different emotions. I am surprised on myself. I have been planning the next phase of my life. I keep thinking about him most of the time. The one person I look forward to talk to is him. And I keep missing him so much. And for the first time, I cried today just because I was missing him. Yeah, this heart has become soft with time, and its falling in love... and the feeling is very good... :)

I am feeling so relaxed now.. my brain is so light after being heavy for last 2-3 days... Thanks to my dear sister, best brother-in-law you can ever get and an awesome friend. Feeling all fresh again.
I feel blessed to have such people in my life.

-Me.

There is something coming towards me, I can see it coming, can feel it. I will have to face it and its necessary to face it rather than running away. It will surely make me better...
Good Luck to myself!
-Poonam.

Back....

I had made my blog private for couple of weeks because I wanted to write some private posts, innermost feelings. Then couple of my friends mentioned to me that its good to read the posts. And its back again...

UPDATE-I have deleted the remaining part of the post for certain reason. It will be up again a little later.

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I love Moms... your, mine and everyone's. They are the best!

My mornings..

I recently found this great pic which is my laptop's wallpaper now... I wake up, start my lappy and there he is smiling at me with the cutest of all smile... I am just loving my mornings when I wake up looking at him... tell me, isnt he really cute?

I am waiting so much for the long weekend.... and I wish its the longest weekend......

Teej

A festival celebrated in India by women for a good married life and long life for their husband. Girls start doing this pooja even before they are married or engaged for their future married life...
I have been out of my home for last 8 years. So, I really don't know what is done and why it is done. I only realized that I am expected to do this when my mom-in-law talked about it to me. My family never enforced it on me and I was also not much into all this. You rather ask me about Federer and Computers.. he he..
This year is my first celebration... and I do feel like celebrating it. Its kind of a nice feeling... I had started preparing for it from last 3-4 days. Tried making Satu on thursday, which ended up being a failed attempt. Attempted it again today, and it turned out good. I read about Teej on the internet and the story behind it. A good source of information about Teej is here -
Teej
Posting here if you need to find it sometime and for my reference as well for next year... I am already preparing for next year.. he he..
Anyways, I am waiting for the moon-rise. It's very cloudy here and I can see lightening, so I doubt I will get to see the moon. My mom-in-law has given me a solution if I dont get to see the moon. I should wait for an hour after the moon rise time. If I dont see it by then, I should end my fast anyways by eating Satu and then followed by fruits or whatever is allowed.
So all the girls out there who are celebrating Teej, hope you had a good time getting pampered by the elders. :-)
Love,
Poonam.

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I suddenly felt that life is too long to plan for anything... and I dont know if people who say "Live in present" really live in present? Don't you plan? How does it work if you don't plan for coming years?

Greeting cards

Lately, I have been trying to find some nice greeting cards for my Fiance... and I figured that there are hardly any nice cards that you get in US.
I am a big cards person and used to give cards for no reason (ask my best friend Priyanka). I realized that you get such nice cards in India of any occasion or just like that cards that I always got more than one card whenever I went to the card shop. Archies, Hallmark, and etc. say the right feelings whats on your mind. But here, I have been so many times and hardly get a good card. I end up buying a card just because I like it but dont end up giving it.
And when I was trying to find a reason why dont I like the cards here, I found that its culture difference. The way we think is a little different than the way people think here. The expression style is different. Plus, since arrange marriage is part of our culture we get cards for every phase of this period... here its not like that...
And, the cards are way more expensive.. starts from $2. I dont know what are the rates in India now, but I could have bought 5 cards in $2. And the nicer, little decorated cards are around $5. Now thats a lot!
Anyways, if you know of some better card shops in US, let me know! I need cards to express myself... :D :)

A quote worth remebering all the time...

A friend once wrote to me this - “Say you write a really bad code and I say to you that, wow, this is amazing work. Is that going to make you happy? I bet not. Similarly when you create an amazing thing, and I say that I don’t like what you did, how would that affect you? Apart from the fact that I did not show my approval. Say, I am a person who you hardly care about…then what? Would it matter to you? Things bother you today in office because, these are people who you attach importance to – your peers, managers, etc. But, when you do that, you are getting trapped into an illusionary circle right? If we decide that we cannot live without caring about what people think or say, why don’t we apply the same concept to the top most level and care about what our heart feels. Because, once we answer to the calls of our hearts, the rest does not matter. They will settle down by themselves.”

I agree to this completely... Gotta train the brain... :). Thanks :).

Dont have a title...

I sometimes wonder... why dont I learn from my past experiences and try to improve. Is it because I dont care? No, but I do care, I think I dont give it due importance.

Learning from past experiences is important. I need to learn to keep them in RAM rather than in the hard drive, so that whenever a situation comes, I dont forget about it. It would have been really cool if I could register a signal, and the signal would have called me whenever a situation like that occurs. God, give me a computer brain with some awesome Operating system.

Sorry, too much of geeky post... could not help, too much of geeky work caused this. So, blame the work I am doing, not me. Anyways, back to some doc... till then, CTRL+ALT+DEL->Lock this computer.

You matter

A very nice post by Seth Godin - http://sethgodin.typepad.com/seths_blog/2009/06/you-matter.html

* When you love the work you do and the people you do it with, you matter.
* When you are so gracious and generous and aware that you think of other people before yourself, you matter.
* When you leave the world a better place than you found it, you matter.
* When you continue to raise the bar on what you do and how you do it, you matter.
* When you teach and forgive and teach more before you rush to judge and demean, you matter.
* When you touch the people in your life through your actions (and your words), you matter.
* When kids grow up wanting to be you, you matter.
* When you see the world as it is, but insist on making it more like it could be, you matter.
* When you inspire a Nobel prize winner or a slum dweller, you matter.
* When the room brightens when you walk in, you matter.
* And when the legacy you leave behind lasts for hours, days or a lifetime, you matter.

And reading this one has made a good start of day for me. Only when I was trying to figure out the reason of my existence, I so much needed to read such a post. Thanks Seth Godin!

Good Luck Federer!

We all know this is the biggest match for you and can imagine the amount of pressure you are going through now... and how its going to be during the match. Keep cool, keep calm and like you have done last three matches, just make Soderling play, let him do the mistakes, and get him tired. You have that stamina which no one has...
I am praying for you! Good Luck! Om Namah Shivay!

Admirer,
Poonam.

AND FEDERER WINS!!!! I am sooooo dammnnnn Happppyyyyyy! Awesome!!!! Loved it! :) :) :)

Mumma...

When things dont go in the way you want them to go, you only remember one person... Mummy... you want to be close to her... and the song on my mind is -

Main Kabhi Batlata Nahin
Par Andhere Se Darta Hoon Main Maa
Yun To Main,Dikhlata Nahin
Teri Parwaah Karta Hoon Main Maa
Tujhe Sab Hain Pata, Hain Na Maa
Tujhe Sab Hain Pata,,Meri Maa

Bheed Mein Yun Na Chodo Mujhe
Ghar Laut Ke Bhi Aa Naa Paoon Maa
Bhej Na Itna Door Mujkko Tu
Yaad Bhi Tujhko Aa Naa Paoon Maa
Kya Itna Bura Hoon Main Maa
Kya Itna Bura Meri Maa

Miss you Mumma... :(

My current state -

I need some strength, some confidence, some concentration and a lot of motivation and faith in myself...
O God... please help me!

To a friend...

This one's dedicated to my dear friend Tejas...
A friend who has been with me like a rock last 3.5 years, who has helped me in every little thing and made sure that I get things done rightly.
I am going to miss you, a lot! I never realized how much till today... and suddenly I wonder, whom I am going to call when I am in trouble at any time of day or just like that... I am sure gonna miss you. :(. :((

Source of Happiness

Just a small tip -
Don't make one thing your only source of happiness. With big things like work and relationships, enjoy the small little things in life. Those small little things can make you happy when the big things are missing in life or are not around. Enjoy when the grass becomes green, the sunset gets delayed, the river starts flowing, a friend calls, or when you eat a chocolate!

A good day at work... worked almost 8 hours with no time pass whatsoever... Feels good!
Have a good evening!

Happy today...

I'm happy today... The only thing that was lacking in my life while living in US was not having a family... And that missing part is full now. I'm so glad to have a family here now. Though its a new one and I still miss my folks back in India, I feel attached to the new ones.
Its 5.30 am in this part of the world, I have not slept the whole night and I'm not even sleepy. And yet I'm feeling good. :).
Take care.

Status messages

Some interesting status messages that my friends in my gtalk lists have -
1. All you really gotta do is live and die, but I'm in a hurry and don't know why.
One of my friend has this as her status msg... and I so much agree to it... take it easy girl...
2. Your foot's asleep? I hate it when it does that! Now it's going to be awake all night!
I dont know what this means.. but the friend surely will know...
3. The only way we can be of any help to others around is by working on ourselves !!
I so much agree to this... and its self learned!
4. TGIF
I so much love this... fav acronym. :D

My status msg... naa I am invisible today and for the weekend.. ;-).
Have a great weekend!

Month of April '09

I got engaged last month! That is the biggest step I have ever taken and most of it was my decision.

His name is Ashutosh. A game programmer working in Atlanta. His family is based out of Chennai. So far so good... :-).

We spoke to each other for more than a month. It all started with my Brother-in-law and his sister-in-law's match-making brains. They both are first cousins. It started with an email, followed by some chat and phone conversations. A's parents and my parents met and they liked each other (I find this statement funny. So, I am putting it here as well). And then we were supposed to meet. I convinced him to come to Boulder saying Boulder is very beautiful. On Thursday, the weather department forecast'd heavy snow blizzard in Boulder and areas around. Having experienced a snow blizzard just a week ago, I called A and told him about it and got the meeting postponed to next weekend. I had so much of guilt because it was me who convinced him for Boulder and it was me who was postponing the meeting. Mr. A was going to be super busy next some weekends and did not have enough time to travel, so I decided to fly down to Atlanta and meet him. Good that I did not have to play a host. :D.

Spent a day with him, had good time. And at the end of the day said yes. The decision was not a click decision. It happened gradually as the day passed. None of my family members have seen him or met him in person and I have not met any of his. I was very tensed to take such a big decision on my own. But, recently I had realized that you need to take risks and make things work and you are responsible for your own happiness. And I took the decision.

I was in a weird state for a week. I did not know what to do, how to react. Being in States, away from family it was taking time to sink in. I only felt some difference when I spoke to his family and my family. And they all were super happy and excited. I could feel that when I spoke to them. And they could not feel the same when they spoke to me. I had to assure them that it will take sometime.

And things changed when we met again last weekend. Had a really good time and now I feel that yes, I am engaged and there is this new person in my life whom I really want to talk to, know more about him and spend time with him. I love talking to his family. Its going nice so far and I am looking forward for more from life.

I am sorry to post this so late. My idea was to post this news first on my blog. But due to a cluttered brain at that time, nothing right would come out of it. Better late than never! :)

I will be writing a blog about my experience on how it goes for a girl in an arrange marriage. I had decided some time back that I will write about it after I get engaged. How all this changes a girl's mindset about herself and the world. Look for it sometime soon!

Motorcycle Diaries (with some random thoughts)

I just saw this beautiful movie "Motorcycle Diaries" and highly recommend watching it. I wont write much here about the movie, because I want you to see it. Just a little background, 2 guys on a bike set to travel the South Americas! Do nothing great but have a great experience.

Beautiful cinematography of one of my favorite destinations, South Americas! I have never been there but it is one of my most desired destinations to visit. Just love the tropical green, the vast amazon water, the beautiful mountain ranges, the non-commercialized land!

The other day I was thinking this - what if one day I lose everything? No job, no money, nothing in my hand other than couple of friends and family. Will I have enough strength to start all over again? Will I be able to live a life without the comforts that I have now? In short, will I be able to come out of this comfort zone? I was insecure that night. I tried calling my friends to find some answers, but I couldn't reach anyone. And I was lucky to not find anyone, because that let me search the answers within myself. I thought over it. And there is only one way to come out of that insecurity, to get out of your comfort zone! I have a solution for myself, start everything from zero. I would not go into details of how, when, why, but if there are no commitments, surely sometime in near future. I shall write more about it, when I do it and if I ever do it.I believe that would increase my inner strength and that is what a person needs more than anything else!

So, why did I write the above paragraph when I am talking about Motorcycle Diaries. Because after watching that movie, I felt more urge of doing it. Its difficult to convince your family when you want to do such things, and in my case that is the most difficult task, but think I can do it when time comes. I am writing all this to convince myself, so please do not mind it.

That is it, more random thoughts some other time. Time to write a letter to Mom. Yeah, I mean a hardcopy letter. She wants me to write it. And the lead hero in Motorcycle diaries writes letters to his mom, so another inspiration and have to do it today. This was on my to-do list since a week. My mom was telling me about a letter I wrote to my family when I first went to hostel, in my first year of engineering. Recently, my family sat after a dinner and laughed a hell lot when they read it all together. Oh well, I can imagine how funny that letter can be. It was meant to be funny, but with my writing skills, it is super funny. We have a tradition in our family of writing letters and the credit goes to my Grandfather, Baba. I have to write him also a letter. He is 83 and cannot hear very well now. So, letters are the best way to communicate with him. He loves knowing about what is going on and how its going on, and has 100s of questions. And the best part is, he replies back to the letters. He uses a type-writer to write letters. Yes, he still uses it. When I first came to US, he wrote me a letter and posted it by normal post which never reached me. So, he has given up on posting a letter, rather sends it with someone if someone is visiting me or emails me with the help of my sister. I personally feel, letters are better than telephonic conversation. You can enjoy them all your life. :)

Just too many random thoughts, rather a brain dump! Thanks for reading it if you are still reading. Dont forget to watch "Motorcycle Diaries". The two hours surely will add something to your brain and heart.

Understanding

I have always felt that relationships are the most complex thing to take care of. But with time, I have realized that the crux of every relationship is "Understanding". If you understand the other person well, the relationship works great. May it be a Father-Daughter, your sibling, your friend, your boss, if you can understand or even try to understand what the other person is trying to tell or is doing, you have at least put a little bit from your side to that relationship. Do not always try to judge the other person.

My relationships over time have evolved beautifully with number of people, family + friends. And I would give full credit to the word "Understanding", understanding from their side and from my side. Some of those relationships have seen the worst times when there were arguments, cold wars, no talks, etc. but some of them still are the best ones that I treasure.

If you want to make something work, try to Understand!

P.S. - And as I write this, I also want to mention that I feel India currently has the best batting tail. Harbhajan and Zaheer have pull of the team a hell lot of time! And Zaheer has just hit 4 fours in a row to O'Brien in the India - New Zealand third Test match.

All alone...

Living alone in my apartment, I never felt lonely. But I am already anticipating the loneliness(while I am at work) that I will have today evening. I am dreading to go back to my apartment in the evening. The reason being last 4 days one of my cousin was visiting me. We spoke so much, had so much fun, that I will feel lonely in that house for couple of days till I get used to it again.

You dont realize things till you experience it. Once you experience it and like it, you would want to have it more. And you dont know when you will have it.

I am not sure why I am writing this stuff on this blog, but think I can share more with my blog at any time rather than any person with different constraints (continent, time, office, work, etc constraints).

An amazing song

I came across Whitney Houston today and loved her voice and specially this beautiful song "One Moment in time". Lyrics goes like this -

Each day I live
I want to be a day to give the best of me
I'm only one, but not alone
My finest day is yet unknown
I broke my heart for every gain
To taste the sweet, I faced the pain
I rise and fall,
Yet through it all this much remains

I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

I've lived to be the very best
I want it all, no time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance here in my hands

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be, I will be, I will be free

I will be, I will be free

Check out the song here on youtube. Do listen to the song.
Enjoy!

Stye Eye

UPDATE:- A lot of people have visited this blog while searching for stye eye and ranjanwadi. So I thought I should write how it got cured. I did not have to do anything to my stye eye. I slept at night and it got cured the next day morning. So, try resting your eyes and avoid eating anything that generates heat in your body. Hope it helps.

My right eye has a stye and it is continuously watering. I should not be online now and instead rest, but I want to write about the styes that I had in my past.

When I was around 5-6 years, I used to get Styes very often. I remember, I got a stye on my left eye, when that got cured, I got it on right eye. When that got cured, I got it again on the left eye. It was weird. Poor me, had continuous watering eyes. It was not getting cured even after multiple visits to doctors. Everyone at home was worried of whats going wrong. My mom took me to Hyderabad to some sadhu ji who cures such stuff. I was in Hyderabad for around a week, went to the sadhu ji but it still did not get cured. I came back to my hometown with stye eye. Then someone told my Mom that donate silver eyes to the Hanuman ji temple in the city. And my mom got silver eyes made. One Saturday, we went to the temple and with some pooja and all, she donated the eyes. And in next couple of days, no more Styes! Ok! I know it is ridiculous, but thats how it works in India. And all this still works in India.

I sometimes find it weird though. I believe in God, but not so much that I would leave all up to him. And I dont understand how people are so spiritual that they would leave everything up to God. They would expect God to make every wrong thing right. If that would have been the case, why would he (God) put the wrong thing in our lives?

Anyways, think I should rest my stye eye, only to see it full grown tomorrow morning.

And yeah, I do believe in God. So, Jai Hanuman! :-)

UPDATE: I didnt say Jai Hanuman so that he cures my stye eye, I said it because I referred him in the post. And no, I would not do the stuff that my mom did for the stye eye.

The five agreements

Today something did not go the way it should have gone. But even after that I am not feeling sad. If same thing had happened a year back, I would have been a little sad. But its not same now. I am changing and changed quite a bit and yes for good. :)

I went for run today, after running went to have orange juice at Jamba juice. There was a book "The four agreements" and I liked the four agreements mentioned in the book. And I think I follow most of it now, so I am not sad today even when things don't go the right way.

1. Be impeccable with your word - Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others.

2. Dont take anything personally - Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to opinions and actions of others, you won't be victim of needless suffering.

3. Don't make assumptions - Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want.

4. Always do your best - Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstances do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.

Adding another thing to that list which I try to follow -
5. Don't hold grudges - against people even if they have hurt you, caused you loss, made you feel pathetic. That will help you in forgiving yourself, forgiving others and being fresh every moment. Everyone has their own reasons of doing things the way they do, and you cant ask reasons for everything.

A confession though, sometimes it hurts you by being good to others, but hurting yourself can be taken care of in just a snap shot, while mending it with others takes lifetime.

Cheers,
Poonam.

New York

I had been to New York this weekend. Loved it again. It was my third trip to New York, the first two being interview trips, this was my New York trip. I love the energy the city has. Everyone is on move, lights, people, subways, maps, its fun. After two days of hubhub, I am not feeling tired at all. That is the energy the city has, and I love everything that energizes me.

Couple of incidents-
I was waiting for a bus just outside my hotel. There was a lady, in her 40s, waiting there for her bus. I asked her to confirm if my bus was coming there as well. And then the conversation-
Lady: Aap India se ho?
Me: Haan, mein India se hu.
Lady: Mein Pakistan se hu.
Me: Pakistan se.
Lady: Bahut acha lagta hai apne logo ko dekh kar. Mein tumhe kaafi der se dekh rahi hu, jab tum hotel se yaha chal ke aa rahi thi.
Me: Haan, acha lagta hai bahut. Aap idhar rehti ho?
Lady: Haan, idhar hi paas mein rehti hu. Tum job kar rahi ho ya padhai?
Me: Abhi job kar rahi hu, Colorado mein.
Lady: Acha. Aj kal to job ki kitni problem chal rahi hai. Mein idhar Laguardia airport ki security mein kaam karti thi. Mere manager ne mera id le liya and boli ki "I will call you", aur 2 mahine se abhi tak nahi bulaya. Abhi mein naya job dhundh rahi hu. Usike liye jaa rahi hu. Peechle 2 mahino se meri behne hi mera rent bhar rahi hai, mujhe help kar rahi hai.
Me: Ohh.
Lady: Beta, tumhari bus aa gayi hai. Change lagega.
Me: Haan, aunty hai change. Acha chalti hu mein. Aap ko job search ke liya Good Luck. Jaldi mil jayega job.
Lady: Mein bhi tumhare liye dua karungi. Khush rehna.
Thats it. I was happy. :)

1 bus trip costs 2 dollars. I had 1 dollar bill and 1 dollar quarter change. I board the bus and the bus driver tells me that he does not take 1 dollar bills. He takes quarters only. And he shouts in the bus, asking if anyone has change for dollar bill. Luckily a Chinese guy has change for a dollar bill. He gives me the change and I give him dollar bill and thank him.

Then I reach the Jackson Heights subway station. Decide to buy a day pass, I go to the vending machines. When I was getting the pass, an asian lady who didnt know how to operate the vending machines was requesting a man to help her out. The man said, I am in hurry, cant help now. She asked me. I was in no hurry, I got her a pass with her money. She was happy and thanked me holding my hand. I returned the favor the Chinese guy did to me by helping the asian lady get her pass. Felt good.

Manhattan is as vibrant as it could be. So so so many high rising buildings, so many people, so many different things, its awesome. I surely want to live in New York some time of life. I had an opportunity some time back, but did not go then, was not sure if I would cope with the New York life. But now I want to live in New York and enjoy the energy and grandness of the city. I am sure it would be fun.

Another small incident at Denver airport - I was driving out of parking lot and had to pay the parking fees at one of the booths. The guy at the booth was a little dark. I had a small conversation with him -
Guy: Hi there, How are you?
Me: Hi. I am good. How are you?
Guy: Good. 22 dollars.
Gave him the credit card.
Guy: Are you from India?
Me: Yes.
Guy: You people have similar face and color like us.
Me: Where are you from?
Guy: Ethopia.
Me: Ethopia, nice.
Guy: Ok. Have a good evening dear.
Me: You have a good evening too.
I loved how the day went, meeting so many different people from different countries and the small nice conversations which I had with them. I am happy to be in a part of the world called US, where I meet so many different people.

Small small experiences are nice. And the best place to write it down is this blog. I am glad I have a blog.

Kabhi yun bhi to ho....

Amazing gazal of Jagjit Singh from his album Silsilay.

Kabhi yun bhi to ho, kabhi yun bhi to ho......

Dariya ka saahil ho, pure chand ki raat ho, aur tum aao....

kabhi yun bhi to ho, kabhi yun bhi to ho...

Pariyon ki mehfil ho, koi tumhari baat ho, aur tum aao....

kabhi yun bhi to ho, kabhi yun bhi to ho, kabhi yun bhi to ho

ye narm mulayam thandi hawayein, jab ghar se tumhare gujare,
tumhari khushbu churayein, mere ghar le aaye...
kabhi yun bhi to ho...

suni har mehfil ho, koi na mere saath ho, aur tum aao...
kabhi yun bhi to ho, kabhi tun bhi to ho....

kabhi yun bhi to ho, ye badal aisa tut ke barase,
mere dil ki tarah milne ko tumhara dil bhi tarse, tum niklo ghar se...
kabhi yun bhi to ho, kabhi yun bhi to ho...

tanhaai ho dil ho, bunde ho barsaat ho, aur tum aao...
kabhi yun bhi to ho, kabhi yun bhi to ho...

dariyaan ka saahil ho, pure chand ki raat ho, aur tum aao...
kabhi yun bhi to ho, kabhi yun bhi to ho...

Confidence

I was reading an article on one of yesterday's Australian Open quarterfinal matches, and these lines struck me -

"Confidence is a funny thing. Worse, it is a fickle thing. Just when you think you can rely upon it, it vanishes and then, when you think you will never master it, it becomes your best friend."

More on "Confidence" some other time. Gotta get to work... :)
Have a good day!

.....

So, I waited, waited and waited... but nothing came... and when I concluded nothing is coming and its only me who is waiting, there something comes...

Stop expecting things and you see unexpected things!

18 till I die

I have always loved this song... and I am a big fan of Bryan Adams... and today and every year on 17th Jan, I want to say... "18 till I die"... !
I wish to have same enthusiasm every year... same energy... same passion... and a great great set of friends... and I know my family will always and forever be with me!
Thanks for being a part of my life!