Security screenings at Airports

This is funny - http://www.cnn.com/2012/01/10/travel/tsa-defends-cupcake-policy/index.html?hpt=hp_bn7

It reminded me of April 2010, when I was traveling to Atlanta from Boulder for my husband's birthday. Since I was reaching on his birthday eve, I decided to bake cake in Boulder and took Betty Crocker's chocolate frosting tin packed and sealed with me so that I could apply the frosting after reaching Atlanta. But the security officials at Denver airport were not happy with the frosting. It was a gel kind of thing for them which was more than 3 ounce. They checked my bag and told me that I can't take it with me on the plane. When I was like "Please, it is my husband's first birthday after we got married and bla bla bla...", the officials were like "Ok, why don't you apply the frosting here itself?" I was not sure how the frosting would hold up in the plane and did not want to ruin the cake. So, I did not apply the frosting on the cake at the security. (It would have been weird to apply the frosting on the cake at the security). So the frosting went into trash can and the cake was eaten naked (Please, the cake was naked! Ha ha).

Ok, so it will be almost two years of being married this February. Family and relatives have started asking about kids... which makes me think a lot, will I be a good parent?

I love kids, a lot! On my recent India trip, I spent most of my time with a 1.5 year old nephew and 2.5 year old niece. I had so much fun with them and I am sure even they had as much fun. Their parents tell me the kids miss me and I miss them too. If I did not have any other work, I would have spent all my time with them.

But I can never think of having my own kids. I am not sure if I will be able to take good care of them. I am very careless about eating right, and I am scared that attitude of mine will affect my kids. It is a lot of responsibility, life time responsibility. When I think about my past as a kid, I can imagine what my parents had to go through. Agreed that they give you the love that is not comparable to any other love in this world, still I am not ready.

I am also not ready because I am not sure what the future looks like for us... Financially, there is no problem now, but who knows what it will be like in the future. How much money saving is enough to have kids? There are so many uncertainties in life and growing up another life in such uncertainties will make life more complicated. Life never feels settled, ever.

I am not ready for having a kid now, and I am not sure when I will be ready.

I generally don't make resolutions for the new years... But I have one for this year - Spending one month in South Americas in the second half of this year. A has agreed to it and wants to do it himself. Lets see if we can make it.

Happy New Year.