So its 10 days to go and I will be married!
Its 6.00 am and I am leaving for India today to get married. In all the preparations of going to India, I forgot about my blog. A friend read my blog yesterday while we were talking and it reminded me of my blog. Reading this, another friend of mine would have said "This is what love does to you". And if you are in Boulder, you can easily guess who this friend is. :D

And yes, this is what love and a person who is there listening to you does. You vent out all feelings to that person and then blog gets bypassed. Its good in one way but I like blogging too... anyways too much digression.

So how am I feeling. I am scared, anxious and I am excited. Living so independently and alone for last 8+ years does get to you. My expectations from myself is the reason for the scare. Lowering your expectations is one solution but then there is no motivations for yourself. Hope I live up to my own expectations which are generally very high. :(

I am super anxious. I have lost my sleep, I hardly sleep for 4 hours a day. I don't feel hungry at all. When I don't work, I just think about how the wedding is going to be. If my dresses are going be apt, the jewelery, etc etc. oh well, a girl's mind and heart is always in her looks. :D

I am happy that most of my close relatives are making it to the wedding. I wish I could say that about my friends too. But either they are super far or they are super busy with their lives (some are expecting new little ones). But hey, I have their wishes. :-).

And I am looking forward for the entire experience of pre-wedding celebrations, the big fat marwari wedding, post-wedding time, honeymoon (we are going Spain!) and the married life after that. It is going to be one big experience...

Will update the blog about this big experience when I am back. See you all in a month. Take care till then.

Love,
Poonam