Letter I wrote to Riya when she was a month old -

I wrote this letter to my daughter Riya when she was a month old... Posting it here now...

September 7th, 2014

Darling Daughter Riya,

Today you are one month old and in NICU at Prashanth Hospital. You had a surgery yesterday to fix your small intestine. And hopefully you will be recovering well in the next week. The next week is the most crucial part of all your NICU days.

A lot of things happened in the last one month. We, your dad and mom, visited you everyday. We loved looking at you even though you slept most of the time. We waited extra time when you were a little active like when you opened your eyes or made faces. We got to see you smile couple of times. It was so cute to see you doing small small things. I got to hold you couple of times and also touch you. You are so small that I am actually scared of handling you. 

Everyone at home is also excited to have you home soon. They have been praying hard for your health. You are lucky to have such a loving family. 

Sometimes I feel very helpless. I feel I can't do anything and can't even be close to you. I feel guilty. I feel restless. There have been ups and downs in last month. Some days we get some good news from the doctors and some days some bad news. The days when there is bad news, I get so restless and cry that the whole house becomes sad. I can't help it. 

Today, I am just praying that the next one week needs to be the best of your life. You need to recover from the surgery and start pooing. :-). After that you can start drinking some tasty milk and put on weight. You will then be home soon. Waiting for you to be home...

Love you lots,

Mumma.